Good morning. It seems like I have a gained a few bloglovin subscribers over the past few months – so firstly, hello and welcome!
Now, it’s been a little while since I updated this blog, I get it. I love blogging, but over the winter time I’ve been caught in a bit of a rut of illness and feeling very uninspired creatively.
Last weekend I visited my home town to see one of my longest and best friends Ellie. This year I made a deal with myself that I would visit my hometown / family / friends (they are all the same place) at LEAST once a month and so far I’m so glad that I did. Going back always connects me so much to my self. It grounds me and reminds me of how far I have come.
HELLO! I know, I know, it’s February. I’m a bit late to the party.
The change of the year is always a bit bittersweet. This last decade has been a struggle for a lot of the time, whether it’s personal circumstances, depression, anxiety, it’s been a whole load of learning about life and how I work. I like to think I’m now a different person now – my armour is a bit thicker, I know myself better and hopefully, I can wrangle my inner child with a bit more confidence, kindness and with better results.
Looking back, it doesn’t feel like I filled my 2019 with photography – there was a lot of chasing my own tail and thinking more than doing. I started to lose a little bit of the play of creating and I am now trying to bring the fun into 2020. Although I may not have done too many shoots last year, I still created some of my best and most treasured work too so overall I’m proud of myself for what I accomplished.
SO many good things happened in 2019; we moved into a house with rooms, we added a beautiful kitten to our family and I started new work which has been going well. We are building a foundation for ourselves slowly but surely.
I have picked out a selection of the images I made in 2020 which I am most proud of – here’s to 2020!
And finally a big THANK YOU if you are following this blog or even if you’re just reading it as a one off. I want to start working on the ‘education’ part of the blog in the future, so if there is anything that you would like to know more about please do say!
Let me know in the comments your favourite moment of 2019.
I was pretty sure it was Monday today – but it turns out it’s actually Tuesday. ??♀️
One thing they just don’t tell you about working for yourself is just how much you need to actually interact with other people in order to not be cripplingly lonely. Ah, I remember this from last time. As an introvert, I could quite happily spend all day at home with my computer and a book and be very happy about it. But after a few days, the loneliness creeps in.
Therefore, whenever someone asks if I want to do something IRL, my default answer at the moment is ‘yes, okay!’ which is actually quite a scary answer for an introvert, but it’s turning out okay so far. An old work colleague of mine who has an interest in photography, Jen, invited me along to a photo walk with her and her housemates. Shock, horror, new people, socialising, walking.
I turned up quite worried, but also glad to be out of the house, and it turns out the people were all lovely. It was really nice to just take my camera out and photograph the things around me just for fun. I don’t think I’ve done that for a while and it’s definitely a very mindful thing to do.
Chatting with these people I started to learn two things:
Firstly – to loosen up and not take photography so seriously. Remember when you first picked up a camera and you just wanted to play and take great photos.
Secondly – to play with some of my other cameras at home! As well as my pro equipment, I also have quite a few little and interesting film cameras that I have not used in ages. Film is exciting and it feels like a whole different way of shooting.
I’m not really sure why I shot everything in portrait, it’s not exactly the norm of ‘street photography’… I think I was probably just stuck in book cover mode. ?
Anyway, I’m looking forward to loosening up with photos a bit and seeing these guys again.
Any tips from freelancers out there?
Thank you for reading!
PS: I’m currently uploading some pretty cool images to Instagram at the moment.
A few weeks ago I met up with the wonderful Hannah with the intention to do some pretty spontaneous whimsical portraits and play around with what we could do.
When Hannah stepped out of the train station with bright pink hair, I knew we had to do something awesome – pink, mystical and whimsical. Without much planning beforehand, we were limited on location and props but worked with whatever we could find.
I pushed the edit more than I have in a little while – in the last few years my portraits have been fairly neutrally edited, but this time I tried out some new things and love the results! I’d love to get my fine art game back on and create some really different pieces of art – this is my gateway.
Thank you so much to Hannah for being a wonderful model for me, for your first modelling experience you smashed it.
A notice popped up on my email saying something along the lines of ‘calling for images of cages!’. Way back in university I remember photographing some beautiful vintage birdcages so I decided to dig out my old hard drive and see what I could find – and oh boy did I find a treasure trove that I was not really prepared for. Unfortunately, I found no images of cages, but what I did find was really quite exciting and strangely cathartic.